Week 17: I decide.
Interesting week. I would not be surprised that once I will be looking back at the whole course in a few months, that week 17 will have turned out as somehow the ‘key-week’.
Every week so far has brought me fantastic insights and material to work with, and many break-throughs have happened, on different levels and in many different ‘shapes’.
But this week seems to bring me really right down to ‘my core’, because of my ‘Franklin-Make-over-quality-of-the-week’: decisiveness.
Not that I was so un-decisive before, well, that is: not that I was so un-decisive before in the outer world. OK, granted, there too some further development of this specific quality certainly was welcome, but I was not exactly the ‘just let it all happen and go with whatever wind comes where-ever it takes you in what ever way.’
No, it’s in the inner realm that my work is done. And I thank my ‘subby’ for this wonderful ‘coincidental order’ and timing of all the qualities that it picked…..starting with ‘my sweet persistence’ as I wrote earlier, and aligned with the kindness-week last week that took that theme even further. And so this week it’s ‘decisiveness’ that is being held under the magnifying glass, and I am SO grateful that I had the chance to first further deepen the ‘being kind to myself’ (as in persisting kindly also, yes, still going on with that one too….), because with ‘decisiveness’ I again stumble on a quality that so far has been associated and executed mainly in the ‘harsh’, not very self-respecting way, by dear Ol’Selfie.
But so now I could immediately tune into another ‘kind’ 🙂 of this quality.
And because of that — other than of course seeing it all around me, no problem with that, actually it struck me already two weeks ago, during the first week of the make-over, that you can see whatever quality in whatever ‘event’ or ‘thing’ or ‘behavior’ if you look for it, even the exact same event looked at with a different focus will give you exactly the quality you are looking for — but, so: because of tuning immediately inward on my search for ‘developing decisiveness’, I went even deeper than I anticipated.
So I was not even simply (or only) looking to be more decisive, to take more decisions, to make them easier and in a more gentle way or for better (= more kind, gentle) reasons, but already on day one I stumbled on what seems to be ‘my Key’ in this whole story. ‘This whole story’ being the MasterKey-course, but also being: my Life, Me.
Because I suddenly realized that this is what I need to do, and I’m applying it persistently:
I decide what I think. At all times. In all circumstances.
Yes, I am what I think, and so now I really ‘think’ what I will to be, and what I already am, in essence.
AND: I decide to apply, and I decide how I feel.
So: I do that, now. 🙂
This realization gave me instantly a HUGE feeling of ‘being home’, being in control (in the right way), of a calm, relaxed state of mind, of being safe. AND: being RESPONSABLE.
There it is, there I have it: My Power. My true, innate Power, and access to it.
No more distractions, no more scattered mind. When I notice myself drifting, I gently (yesyes 😉 ) bring myself back, to ‘profound wellbeing‘. Yes, I allow myself to think what I choose to think, inspired by Futur’Selfie.
And yepla, all the rest falls into it’s place: the substituting, the dual-thought-stuff, the practicing and so on, and especially all the affirmations, …..