Week#15: Allowing what is
This week I have mainly been practicing ‘Allowing what Is’.
There is some kind of tornado passing through me, sweeping out lots of ‘carcasses’ of old behaviors and thought-patterns. Unstoppable. Surrendering is the only answer.
My Franklin make-over of the week was Specialized Knowledge, and during a walk I suddenly noticed the grass… and a sentence out of ‘Standing Tall’ came to my mind: ‘Grass doesn’t try to grow, it just grows’. Because it has the innate Specialized Knowledge to do so in that specific way, even more: if not, it wouldn’t be grass. It surrenders by nature to it’s own True Nature. Simple…
It clicked. As I am focussing on Specialized Knowledge, it dawned to me that I do not have to develop that knowledge about ‘being me’ — which was what I was ‘on about’ initially, but simply give in to it, surrender to it, and let ‘me’ truly emerge, ALL of it, or I am not ‘Me’. I thought I already had, but oh….. there is so much more to ‘me’…..
How?… By Allowing what Is, AS it is, inside me as well as outside me at the moment, with all there is ‘to it’, in absolute, complete faith, regardless. Even if that means for the moment, I seem to have completely lost any ‘frame’ or ‘structure’. Letting go of some long overdue inner rules. Surrendering to that tornado and to a much more sincere version of ‘me’, much more complete also. Reminiscences of fears that created boundaries inside myself and still kept part of my energy ‘hostage’ and separate stand no chance against the inner determination of the tornado (me 🙂 ) , that got unleashed by the inner work, and now ‘takes over’.
Intriguing process, hard to put into words, fascinating and magnificent. The fruit of all the inner work delivered since starting the course, and still going on. Bliss. Immense Gratitude to all and everything ‘involved’….
And it feels like this is only the beginning….